Life right now is ok its getting better in some ways and in others it could be better.
Things with kevin are getting better. we arent fighting anymore and its a nice feeling to know that. I am happy that we are happy.
And on to other things. School is just so frustrating because its not that i dont like school i do but i just cant stand some of the people that i go to school with. If i was in a smaller class then it wouldnt be so bad but when you have 20+ people there its so hard to learn anything cause everyone keeps talking and talking its so annoying.
I am not surprised that the freshman class are doing way more color than we did because ms bonner can actually teach it and get through it. we couldnt do that. it was a struggle to get through color and that was the one thing that everyone wanted to do and once we get to it everyone was more interested in talking about nothing then about color or how to do it.
I wanted to learn more about color and do more if that but we didnt. I knew that was going to happen because there is no focus in our class. i cant take it. that and the back talk about the teachers is so stupid grow up. everyone talked about ms davila and how she couldnt teach then when ms bonner came it was oh she cant teach we dont like her then she leaves and now its ms cosby and its the same thing. seriously shut up and grow up. and then its also about ms moore too. she isnt evil like everyone says she is who she is and thats it. everyone needs to get a huge reality check.
i keep hearing oh i want to do this i want to move out well that wont happen cause they all refuse to stop being spollied. Its really sad. I cant understand some of them cause i dont think that this is what they really want. I see that everyday. I cant take that. if they dont want this then they shouldnt be in school anymore cause im tried of it. that and if i hear again oh we wasted 15,000 dollars im going to snap. Im fed up with hearing that. I mean really you are going to pay 15,000 to go to a school for a semister. i mean honestly. It was 15,000 a semister at centenary 30,000 a year. thats nothing to what other schools are. I really just cant wait to be done and to live my life how i want to. I want to get my own place and car and just move out. Im done with beign home and having a life that isnt mine. Im ready for that. that and tonight i am going to drive up to see kevin cause i need that. he is the only one who gets this no one in my class cares about me or anything. I am just at a breaking point. Idk. i will write soon
rachael
